Text: John 13:21-32

The word of the Lord must have rocked everyone in the room, “Truly, truly, I say to you, one of you will betray me” (John 13:21). It had been just a short while ago they all had argued about who would be the greatest; now it was told one would be the least—a betrayer—but no one knew who as “the disciples looked at one another, uncertain of whom he spoke” (John 13:22 ESV).

I can’t help but think that Peter feared he was the one, after all Jesus had previously spoken to him words that must still be reverberating in his spirit, “The one who has bathed does not need to wash, except for his feet, but is completely clean. And you are clean, but not every one of you” (John 13:10 ESV). “So Simon Peter motioned to him [the disciple whom Jesus loved] to ask Jesus of whom he was speaking” (John 13:24 ESV).

Ever wondered what that motion was? Was it a nod or a furled brow? Did Peter mouth the words, “Ask Him”? Or did he just give John a fearful look and desperate sigh? Whatever the action was it is interesting, after all the personal confrontations that Peter had with Jesus, he chose not to go directly to the Master himself. It seems there was a private fearfulness that over-rode Peter’s afore-witnessed boldness.

I believe there are times when we are fearful and, afraid of His response, fail to go to the Lord personally. With no one close by to motion to, we languish in the waters of the unknown and become more fearful and discouraged. It is in those times of trepidation that we must recall His love, care, and concern for us. We must remember that, as our heavenly Father, He has only our best interest at heart—even (and unlike Peter) if our fear is justified.

Remember today Hebrews 4:15 KJV: “For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin.” And then practice Hebrews 4:16 KJV: “Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.” Pray for those who may still be fearful of the Lord, especially those who may think they can never be forgiven, when in all actuality the Lord is just a personal confession and repentance away.